THE CALL OF THE VOID
I’d have to say this year that I’ve put quite a lot on my plate. Between taking 15 credit hours, being the newly appointed Managing Editor at The Sentry, and currently scouting for another part-time job to meet my financial burdens, it’s safe to say there will never be a dull moment in my life.
For some, this may not seem like much, that I’m doing nothing compared to others, but you can’t invalidate someone else’s experiences just because they’re not your own. This year, I have taken on more responsibilities, and I’m very much overwhelmed and anxious for what might result this year.
Growing up, my mom used to always tell me, “Work hard, play later,” and to that I would always answer, “Why can’t I have both?” I always understood that to enjoy your life you have to sacrifice some time with hard work. But as Jack Torrance once said, “All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy,” because it seems that all my life will be just hard work. How dull.
With everything going on this year, I have a grim feeling of not being able to enjoy my time in college. And while I continue to battle myself on prioritizing and looking ahead for the future, I guess there are some positives to biting off more than I can chew.
Pro: I get to work with my amazing colleagues on staff at The Sentry. Pro: I get to challenge myself through the courses that I take for this year, ultimately benefiting me for my career in the future. Pro: I’m surrounded by good people who support me every day. And if I’m being transparent, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
As the year goes on, I will remember that I will die, that this year is no different from the last and just presents new challenges and obstacles that I will have to overcome. And even though it may seem like times are grim and it looks like I will be working forever, I know that at the same time I’m having the time of my life.