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ALTITUDE ADJUSTMENT: Twenty-Fun

I’ve always been a person to exceed expectations. Whenever I’m assigned a role, I try to fulfill it and go beyond, without making a huge fuss or production. As a student, daughter, and teammate, I’ve always been more about embracing rules and convention, rather than breaking them. Change is in the air.

Since the beginning of the school year, I’ve been obnoxiously counting down the days until my 21st birthday—there have been vocal announcements, crafty puns, and routine text reminders from me to the people in my life. As several in the Sentry office can attest, I’ve layed out my plans for all to see and hear.

There will be glitter eyeshadow, and lots of dancing.

For the first time ever, I’ve made a big deal out of something about myself. It feels completely counter-intuitive, and like the humble pie I’ve been baking my entire life has fallen to the floor, smashed into pieces. I cleaned up the mess by buying a sparkly dress.

This rhetoric comes with purpose.

I don’t like to make things overtly about myself. I haven’t for a long time. Yet, as March 29 has arrived, the anniversary of my birth, there’s a new kind of thrill for me. I’ve been making a production of this date and this event to save myself from an overdose on my carefully executed roles and expectations. If I continue to hold myself up as always sweet or innocent or humble, my finely stitched edges will start to fray in the worst ways.

Step-by-step, I’m able to peer outside the boundaries of the straight outline I’ve drawn myself. I can be a little tipsy, a little loud, and a little narcissistic. There will glitter eyeshadow, and lots of dancing. You won’t catch me with any guilt. Instead, I’ll be embracing the feelings and emotions I never let come too close—a sense of pride, confidence, and a shot of selfishness.

For one night, there will be celebration—of who I am, what I do, and how I strive to be. Probably, in a week or so, I’ll settle back into my more comfortable characteristics. Quiet and introspective, back into my favorite roles. However, I’m not going to lose that sparkle.

—Savannah Nelson

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